Posts Tagged ‘self hate’

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I am always amazed when I attend conferences on appearance and on how to become a professional puppet to appease other puppets. Ultimately a conference on folks telling me how to act to avoid being perceived differently.  (Differently, we are all different! But any who)  As I grow stronger in the Word and continuously build my relationship with God, I find that none and I mean none of this matters in the grand scheme of things.  The way I wear my hair or the design of my shirt or the size of my necklace does not nor will it stop the Blessings that God has in store for me. For his favor on my life is far bigger than any concocted human standard only created by dust.  Humans that is! No I am not being cocky or saying that you should not follow the laws of the land. Please do as the Word of God tells us too.  All I am saying is that no one but God puts a limit to what you can do and how far you can go in your life, career, passions, parenting etc.  No simple cloth, facial expression or metal can detour the successful path of a favor-filled, God-seeking and Faith believing person.  When you take your eyes off him and begin to focus on unreachable standards. I say unattainable because, these standards were set in place by prejudice, hateful, and racial discriminating people who only had their elevation in mind and their kind.  So yeah, try to reach that bar if you dare, a bar that was not designed for you to reach. Heck, a bar that did not have you in mind AT All.

Seek the approval of God and all the things he has to offer.  Keep his promises in mind.  Remind yourself of what God says about you daily.  Allow him to guide you.  Why not?  He made you, sees you right where you are, but most of all created your beginning and end.  Don’t allow others (dust) to entice you to go down a path that God did not design for you.  Trust the potter and not the product(clay) of the potter. For the potter created each one of us differently with different endings.  He did not make us the same in anyway.  Therefore, we cannot be treated as such.

Be you and love all you are and all you have to offer.  For with God leading you, nothing is impossible! Dare to be different! Dare to be ALL of you!

Just something to keep in mind!

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Last night I was reading a summarization of the bible and came across a story that really spoke to my spirit.  The story was when Simon Peter took Jesus aside ad privately reprimanded him for saying such things as him being killed and then rising up in three days.  He advised Jesus that this was impossible because God will never allow this to happen to him.

Jesus turned and saw the disciples, then looked at Peter. “Do not stand in my way, adversary.  You are a hindrance to me because you do not understand the plan of God.  You see only from a human point of view.  Matthew 16:23

What an amazing revelation!  As I let this saturate within me.  I realized then that I myself was my biggest adversary in my life.  I am always watching what I say, do look and wear.  Constantly wanting to be accepted by others and avoid being typecast or labeled a stereotype or even dumb and not worthy.  I downplay who I am and continuously am quiet because I second guess myself thinking that I may sound illiterate and incompetent.

This morning I looked up the word adversary and the definition is one’s opponent in a contest, conflict or dispute.  I also read that it is a person, group or force that opposes or attacks; opponent; enemy foe.  The Devil ; Satan.

Those definitions definitely hit a nerve. But they left off one description – oneself.  In life we fight more against our self and how we view ourselves.  I love the fact that God spoke boldly to Peter – Do not stand in my way Adversary!!! What if we took on our adversary in that same way.

Since I am my adversary – I will speak boldly out loud – Hey, you (Kim) the one in the mirror – do not stand in my way.  For you do not know the plans of God because you only think with your human mind!!! Get out of my way!

I really love this and this is something I plan to follow each day of my life.