Posts Tagged ‘loved’

Today while on the shuttle, I decide to go onto my Facebook as I do daily.  I noticed that I had a friend invite from my grandmother on my dad’s side.  Immediately I thought, why? Why did she send me a friend request?  I haven’t talk to her in over 10 years or my dad if not longer.

Just out of curiosity I went to my dad’s Facebook page only to find that my friend request from months ago was not accepted and that he had updated his profile and cover photo and to top it off, his son and sister were his mutual friends.

I began to feel a sense of rejection.  Asking myself why he wants nothing to do with me.  Before I could deep the hole deeper, God reminded me that he was my father, my true father.  He created love, he is love and I am loved.  It’s amazing to learn that you are loved, but its life changing when you recognize his love.  God spoke to me letting me know that in him I am so deeply loved and that I do not have to hungry for love or thirst for it because the flow from him will never stop or run dry, it will never dwindle.  It will always overflow and overflow.

At that moment, those feelings of being unloved and rejected quickly disappeared because I have finally recognized that I have a father who is love, but most of all who created love. He made me in love and nothing I can ever do will destroy his love for me. Hallelujah!

God has all the love I need!

 

 

I have felt like a foreigner in my own body, in this world, at work, and around others for some time.  At first this would bother me so deeply – wondering why I am like this, why are my thoughts, feelings and insight like this.

My life was flipped upside down and down side-up about a year ago.  I wholeheartedly gave my life over to Christ at 31.  I mean I really laid down the life I once knew and began to follow Jesus.  I picked up his Word and began to meditate on it day and night literally.  I was seeking him with every fiber in my bones. Until one day he showed up and showed out.  He took that natural life I was given and gave me a life that I never imagined that I could ever have. I became a new spiritual creature because he made me one of his Own.

His light dwells within me, constantly radiating and rotating his beauty on the inside of me. When situations arise and my normal reactions of fear, worry, sadness and rage try to arise, I feel the radiance of God’s love for ME reminding me that I am made whole in Christ.  His Word is constantly pouring out of my mouth and swimming in my mind. I am operating in the Spirit.

I am not myself – the self I once knew.  So when I don’t get quick to anger, worry, hurt, sad, frustrated, annoyed – I am reminded by Christ that I have been made brand new and all things from my past have been washed away.

I too, am not of this World and I don’t have to take on the characteristics, personas, ideas, actions, negativity, beliefs that they are offering because I have been transformed and renewed.

I have hope among the hopeless….