Posts Tagged ‘hungry’

“God I want my wants and needs to line up with the very things you want for me”, this was my prayer on Saturday.  I have come to realize that throughout my life, God has always given me the very best.  I do not know what is best for me!  Yes, God does want to give you the desires of your heart and he puts those passions there, but ultimately, we do not know what the Very Best is for ourselves.  This is why my constant prayer now is Lord make my will line up to your Will because your Will is best for me.  I do not want anything else but the best and in you I have that!

Order my steps in your Word – Lead me – Guide Me in Everyway! (Psalm 119:133)  I live a life now directed by the Lord.  I do not want to walk this life without him being my guide.  I love just knowing that God sees the big picture because I sure can’t.  Although his timing is not my own, I know that his timing is best.  For he goes before me to prepare everything for my entrance – I find Peace in that!

I rest in knowing that his Word is a lamp for my feet, a light on my path. (Psalm 119:105)  I am overwhelmed with Joy – because wherever he allows my feet to go – I can have confidence in knowing that I belong wherever I am!  My father is the God Almighty and I am accepted into his family – therefore making me an heir.  I can be bold and triumphant in every situation because my Father is here with me directing me and whispering in my ear – You can do it! Stay strong! Be encouraged! Do not Fear!  No weapon formed against you can prosper!  Amen! This is the God I serve!

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God has yet amazed me again!  It’s always wonderful when he shows you that he is listening to your prayers.  It may not come the way you’d like, but isn’t it ALWAYS amazing when he just gives you a glimpse of what you have prayed for (a little taste).

The other night, I checked my phone only to find a text from a good friend of mine telling me about a job opportunity with a Christian online blog. God knows I have prayed for an opportunity to write devotions. Like, during my time with God, I literally scribble down titles for potential devotions. I couldn’t help but become overwhelm with joy and praise to my heavenly father.  Not because I am going to get the job (which I hope I do), but because he showed me he hears me…(At this moment as I write, I close my eyes and take a deep breathe). I do this because I know he loves me sooo deeply!  He knew that I needed just a hint that he sees me, but most of all he hears me.

Even if the opportunity does not open up to me.  I am still in awe! My father loves me that much – to put me on the mind of a friend that I hadn’t talk to in months to reveal to me that he is listening to me. (Smiling from cheek to cheek at this very moment) I am loved! He loves me! And the best part of it ALL – is that I love him so passionately!

So know that your prayers are not just hitting the ceiling.  Your heavenly father hears them and he is listening to your every request! He sees you….right where you are.   He knows what you need and when you need it.  I find that I am constantly reminding myself of this very thing….Lord I know you see me at this moment and I shall always look to you….Hallelujah!!!!

Scripture I just simply adore

-Are not five sparrows sold for two cents? Yet not one of them is forgotten before God. “Indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Do not fear; you are more valuable than many sparrows.  Luke 12:6-7

-For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11

 

Yesterday was a struggle for me. I thought that I was just physically tired, but soon began to realize that I was actually emotionally drained which impacted my whole being. While at work, I just didn’t really want to be bothered by anyone. I knew that what I was feeling was not of God and that it was a crack that Satan could enter to use against me. I decided not today!

So I got up and went into our game room at the office and began to pray and read about God’s love. When I walked out I felt so much better. I knew that familiar place, but this time I knew a remedy for it and it was to turn to God and not myself. I began to remind myself of His love and how he still loves me when I am acting like this and how he still wants to bless me more than I could dream!

I was reminded by the Spirit that I needed to constantly bath in the love of God and his teachings. As this is the only way that I could withstand those difficulty times. I am reminded that I must feast on God daily. Taste his new manna every morning. He has to stay apart of my daily routine because without him, I will fall back into my old ways. And this I do not want because in him I have been set free and I want to say free indeed!

One thing that I have learned in my spiritual walk with God is – when you have not feasted on him in a while, your body (God) will certainly remind you. It’s like your body goes into starvation mode feasting on any and everything it finds – whether its reality shows, other people’s drama, bad/negative music or thoughts that are not of God. Leaving you to feel empty! I am a witness to this because I have felt this way after I have feasted on those unhealthy things – so much so my body and spirit gets so weak that I have to turn back to God – and feast on those things that are pure and lovely (healthy food) – those things that will build me up and not break me down – those things that will keep my foundation strong when the wind blows!

****Philippians 4:8-9  Finally, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, dwell on these things.9The things you have learned and received and heard and seen in me, practice these things, and the God of peace will be with you.****

 

It’s funny how the very thing that you once hated becomes the very thing that you fall in love with.  There was a time I hated being so sensitive and emotional in tuned with others statement of mind or living situation. I’d cry at the drop of a dime, if I saw a hungry person, a stranded animal on the side of the road, a child without shoes on a cold day or an elderly person in a wheelchair strolling down the road howling groceries in their lap.

But as I have grown, I have learned that this sensitive heart of mine that I once hated and saw as a burden, as my downfall, I have learned that this is what makes me beautiful.  The softness of it and the beauty of my passion for others and their wellbeing is the very love that Christ has for us.  He melts at our very presence and worship.  He aches when we are in pain and feels our hurt.  He wants to be our provider and desires that we live a life full of his greatness and glory.  He cares if we are hungry, sick, sad, lonely, cold…. I have and am still learning to embrace this part of me – the part of me that I have tried to run from and tried to avoid facing because it just didn’t feel good, especially when I couldn’t help those people or situations.

I thank God for this heart of mine – the heart for his people and the deep desire to help others be the best that they can be. This is what it feels like to love others unconditionally and want the best for all mankind.  Lord, I thank you for a heart that loves sooo deeply till it hurts. I once saw myself as fragile as glass, but I have learned that you GOD is my strength and I don’t have to run from who and how you created me. For when I am weak, you are my strength! Thank you Lord for Love and this Huge Heart of Mine!!!!

“Write your story on my heart” – Francesca Battistelli album