Posts Tagged ‘hopeless’

wolfIt’s like while you’re going through something in your life, Satan comes along to beat you down even more with his accusatory and convicting antics.  He makes you doubt your Faith, the fact that you are a Christian, your sanity and so much more. All because you are having a weak moment.  He uses our weak times as his personal playground to slip-in and mind control us.  Please do not get dismayed or psyched out by it.  Speak the word of God and remind yourself of the promises that God has told you.  Satan is lurking and waiting for the right moment to tear at us.  He uses confusion, low self-esteem, self-hate, our faults, our questioning, our anxiousness, and simply lack thereof to prove God wrong all the time. His sole purpose is to cry-wolf that God is a liar, God can’t be trusted and God doesn’t love us.  However, that is the time where we must then fight and fight hard!  Fight him with the Word of God and operate in the strength of God’s might!  God is one opponent he can’t sneak attack or win against.

Advertisements

Each day you have to wake up and take control of your thoughts. Although it sounds pretty easy right, it is far from it.  The reason being is that you have to truly discipline yourself in this area.

I started a new role with the same company that I have been with for over 8 years. This position has truly been a difficult one. Get this; I am a perfectionist, quick learner, structured individual who needs clear direction, patience and organization to succeed in pretty much most of the things I take on in my life. This role supplies none of that, which makes me daily question my existence here, purpose and why I even chose the role in the 1st place.

With all this issues, I struggle each day to make it mentally and figuratively. My thoughts are always negative tearing me down even more to the point it is affecting my health. My stress levels are always at an extreme high. I suffer from back pain with no desire to wake up in the mornings. I have slim to no patience for my husband and children and very snappy with my peers.

I had to slap myself literally back into my Spiritual Reality and remind myself who my Father is and where my Faith lies. This was a true wakeup call! God reminded me that he is still in control and sees the Big picture. More so he is the orchestra of the Big Picture. Yes I see nothing but confusion and disorganization here, but he sees something oh so different.

I have tried daily to take on this role and view it in the eyes of the Lord. And he views me in every situation as a Success and that I will be. More so I prayed for this job and he Blessed me with it. (Proverbs 16:3 – Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and your plans will succeed.)

What helps me daily are the following:

  • Every morning, I look at this yearly devotional (got it for Christmas) that stands next to my alarm clock with scriptures reminding me of what God says to and about me daily.
  • I bought a journal from Target called the Bucket List. I write my feelings down every day to avoid becoming overwhelmed by them. It allows me to write my passions, hopes and fears (this helps a lot!!!)
  • Prayer daily and throughout the day
  • Speak God’s word to myself aloud and within
  • Draw pictures (funny but love this – visual picture of myself conquering and overcoming) of how I want to feel and what I want to accomplish daily
  • Write out my exact feelings (Happy, Productive etc.) that I want to feel and write a scripture to back it up
  • When I struggle and I will – simply remind yourself of who your Father is and that he has your back

Verse of choice

II Corinthians 12:9 – My Grace is Sufficient for thee: for my Strength is made Perfect in Weakness.

 

It’s funny how life turns out – especially when you are no longer the navigator.  In my life I have learned that allowing God to guide me is what is best for me.  And you know what else, the release of trying to do this and that is no longer my job.  The pressure to figure out my own way is certainly no longer a pressure point for me because I have released control over to God.  Yes, I still have to do my part – but God is certainly guiding me down a path I have never imagined I’d take.  Yes, there have been a few ups and downs. But I wouldn’t trade anything for my journey now. The reason being is that I truly wouldn’t be as strong, confident, peaceful, but most appreciative of where I have been and my future. I know that there is nothing I can’t accomplish through Christ and Great things are ahead for me.

“God I want my wants and needs to line up with the very things you want for me”, this was my prayer on Saturday.  I have come to realize that throughout my life, God has always given me the very best.  I do not know what is best for me!  Yes, God does want to give you the desires of your heart and he puts those passions there, but ultimately, we do not know what the Very Best is for ourselves.  This is why my constant prayer now is Lord make my will line up to your Will because your Will is best for me.  I do not want anything else but the best and in you I have that!

Order my steps in your Word – Lead me – Guide Me in Everyway! (Psalm 119:133)  I live a life now directed by the Lord.  I do not want to walk this life without him being my guide.  I love just knowing that God sees the big picture because I sure can’t.  Although his timing is not my own, I know that his timing is best.  For he goes before me to prepare everything for my entrance – I find Peace in that!

I rest in knowing that his Word is a lamp for my feet, a light on my path. (Psalm 119:105)  I am overwhelmed with Joy – because wherever he allows my feet to go – I can have confidence in knowing that I belong wherever I am!  My father is the God Almighty and I am accepted into his family – therefore making me an heir.  I can be bold and triumphant in every situation because my Father is here with me directing me and whispering in my ear – You can do it! Stay strong! Be encouraged! Do not Fear!  No weapon formed against you can prosper!  Amen! This is the God I serve!