Posts Tagged ‘hate’

2 nights ago, I had another dream about a tornado.  My husband, I and our two daughters were driving to church.  We knew a bad storm was coming because we heard about it on the radio.  As we were driving, I noticed from a far a tornado developing and another one coming directly at us.  Hoping that my husband could possible beat it, I screamed go, go! He went as fast as he could, but the tornado was way too fast. We got swept up in it.

As it snatched us into its stomach and swallowed us whole, I immediately closed my eyes and began to pray loudly in the car.  All I remember is being so wrapped-up in my prayer and allowing God to calm me and praying he did the same for my family.

The prayer request that stood out the most was me asking God to allow our fall to feel like we landed on a pillow.  I knew we would be thrown somewhere and we were!  But God honored my prayer and the fall felt just like we landed on a pillow.  We were not harmed and neither was our car.

The next day, I contemplated on the dream asking myself what God wanted me to get out of it.  I thought about how my (real) life has been pretty crazy right now and how I have lean so heavily on God during this time.  More than I have ever done in my life.

I realized at that moment that God wanted me to always keep my eyes on him. Despite this world-wind of life and all that is going on, he wants me to simply close my eyes and have Faith that he will honor all those things that he has promised. But most of all –  he hears me and sees me wherever I am and because of my Faith in him, he will always pull though for me.  Amen to that Good News!

Hallelujah, this really blessed me – just the fact that my daddy revealed himself to me in a dream about tornados (which I have always been fascinated with and fearful of at the same time since I was a kid).

I am loved!!!  Hallelujah, I am loved!!!!

Proverbs 8:17 – I love those who love me, and those who seek me find me.

Jeremiah 29:13 – You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.

Last night I was reading a summarization of the bible and came across a story that really spoke to my spirit.  The story was when Simon Peter took Jesus aside ad privately reprimanded him for saying such things as him being killed and then rising up in three days.  He advised Jesus that this was impossible because God will never allow this to happen to him.

Jesus turned and saw the disciples, then looked at Peter. “Do not stand in my way, adversary.  You are a hindrance to me because you do not understand the plan of God.  You see only from a human point of view.  Matthew 16:23

What an amazing revelation!  As I let this saturate within me.  I realized then that I myself was my biggest adversary in my life.  I am always watching what I say, do look and wear.  Constantly wanting to be accepted by others and avoid being typecast or labeled a stereotype or even dumb and not worthy.  I downplay who I am and continuously am quiet because I second guess myself thinking that I may sound illiterate and incompetent.

This morning I looked up the word adversary and the definition is one’s opponent in a contest, conflict or dispute.  I also read that it is a person, group or force that opposes or attacks; opponent; enemy foe.  The Devil ; Satan.

Those definitions definitely hit a nerve. But they left off one description – oneself.  In life we fight more against our self and how we view ourselves.  I love the fact that God spoke boldly to Peter – Do not stand in my way Adversary!!! What if we took on our adversary in that same way.

Since I am my adversary – I will speak boldly out loud – Hey, you (Kim) the one in the mirror – do not stand in my way.  For you do not know the plans of God because you only think with your human mind!!! Get out of my way!

I really love this and this is something I plan to follow each day of my life.

Today while on the shuttle, I decide to go onto my Facebook as I do daily.  I noticed that I had a friend invite from my grandmother on my dad’s side.  Immediately I thought, why? Why did she send me a friend request?  I haven’t talk to her in over 10 years or my dad if not longer.

Just out of curiosity I went to my dad’s Facebook page only to find that my friend request from months ago was not accepted and that he had updated his profile and cover photo and to top it off, his son and sister were his mutual friends.

I began to feel a sense of rejection.  Asking myself why he wants nothing to do with me.  Before I could deep the hole deeper, God reminded me that he was my father, my true father.  He created love, he is love and I am loved.  It’s amazing to learn that you are loved, but its life changing when you recognize his love.  God spoke to me letting me know that in him I am so deeply loved and that I do not have to hungry for love or thirst for it because the flow from him will never stop or run dry, it will never dwindle.  It will always overflow and overflow.

At that moment, those feelings of being unloved and rejected quickly disappeared because I have finally recognized that I have a father who is love, but most of all who created love. He made me in love and nothing I can ever do will destroy his love for me. Hallelujah!

God has all the love I need!

 

 

Love is when you can look at a person and see them how Christ sees them! When you can love a person despite what they have, do not have or how they look.  Christ doesn’t base his love off of what you have in the bank or how much you give.  He loves each one of us equally!  And that is why I love him so dearly!  When he sees me, he sees his son’s blood and the love he has for him.  So with these eyes of mine, I too love his people like he loves them and not with conditions.  I am no better than the next person.  I am a child of God and so are each and every last one of you who accepts him as your Lord and Savior.  I believe that looking at the world through the eyes of Christ (with His never failing Love) can heal the hate that devours this world that we live in……

 

Romans 13:10 – Love does no harm to its neighbor…

1 Corn 13:4-8 – …Love never fails…