Posts Tagged ‘God’

Yesterday was a struggle for me. I thought that I was just physically tired, but soon began to realize that I was actually emotionally drained which impacted my whole being. While at work, I just didn’t really want to be bothered by anyone. I knew that what I was feeling was not of God and that it was a crack that Satan could enter to use against me. I decided not today!

So I got up and went into our game room at the office and began to pray and read about God’s love. When I walked out I felt so much better. I knew that familiar place, but this time I knew a remedy for it and it was to turn to God and not myself. I began to remind myself of His love and how he still loves me when I am acting like this and how he still wants to bless me more than I could dream!

I was reminded by the Spirit that I needed to constantly bath in the love of God and his teachings. As this is the only way that I could withstand those difficulty times. I am reminded that I must feast on God daily. Taste his new manna every morning. He has to stay apart of my daily routine because without him, I will fall back into my old ways. And this I do not want because in him I have been set free and I want to say free indeed!

One thing that I have learned in my spiritual walk with God is – when you have not feasted on him in a while, your body (God) will certainly remind you. It’s like your body goes into starvation mode feasting on any and everything it finds – whether its reality shows, other people’s drama, bad/negative music or thoughts that are not of God. Leaving you to feel empty! I am a witness to this because I have felt this way after I have feasted on those unhealthy things – so much so my body and spirit gets so weak that I have to turn back to God – and feast on those things that are pure and lovely (healthy food) – those things that will build me up and not break me down – those things that will keep my foundation strong when the wind blows!

****Philippians 4:8-9  Finally, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, dwell on these things.9The things you have learned and received and heard and seen in me, practice these things, and the God of peace will be with you.****



The beauty of being yourself is embracing your Truths. When you know who you are in Christ, you do not have to live up to anyone’s standards or expectations. That is awesome news today! And it just makes life so much easier! If you are quiet…embrace it! Because God made you quiet. If you are loud….! Embarrass that…because God made you like that! People may say, oh you need to be this way or that way! But those are only their opinions. God breathed life in you and gave you a piece of his identity. You were made in the image of God and the closer you get to him, his likeness and characteristics will soon become yours. Know that nothing is flawed on you when you look like God from the inside out. So I say, Love all of You because at the end of the day, you are embracing God because you are his marvelous creation.

So the next time someone says, you need to be like…..  Simply smile and say to yourself “no I am like my creator and my creator made no mistakes on me”! Hallelujah! Receive that today!


“Genesis 1:27 – So God created mankind in his own image, in the image of God he created them; male and female he created them.”

“Genesis 1:31 – God saw all that he had made, and it was very good. And there was evening, and there was morning–the sixth day.”

It’s amazing when you know your identity in Christ! When you know who and whose you are, nothing can make or break you. I mean nothing! It’s like God implants a piece of his holiness in you and you constant walk in His Power. (The Holy Spirit) Each day I walk in His confidence in my abilities because I know who I am through Christ Jesus. And that knowing allows me to soar high in every aspect of my life.

“Isaiah 40:31 ….but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.”

God does not remember your sins from the past, today and will not remember them in the future. Simply because of what Jesus Christ did on the cross. He carried your sins on his back and died for you to have eternal life with him. And because his blood was shed for you. God sees what his son did. He sees his son’s blood covering you and all your sins. And because you believe in him. You can ask whatever you want in the son’s name and he will give it to you. “John 14:13” No matter what you have done. Start thanking him for that and stop thinking about what you have done wrong. It is not about you. It is about the Lord.

Mediate on this and receive his love today and watch him transform you from the inside out. He wants to make you brand new. You are righteous through God because of Christ Jesus. No sin that you have committed can change that.

Receive the love of God today because he first loved you. He is waiting on you because you are is beautiful child whom he adores…..His desire is for you to live a life full of abundance and in freedom. Allow him to be your rock. Allow him to be your father. Allow him to be your rest. Allow him to be your peace. He hungers for you. You are his baby and he wants to give you nourishment and life. He wants to breathe into you and pour his favour all over you and allow everything you do to be a success.

Come to Christ and allow him to be the head of your life.


Lately fasting has been on my mind. I have been reading a lot about what Jesus did on the cross for us and really have gained a true understanding that it is not about me or my actions. It’s all about what Christ did for me on the cross. He was beaten, bruised, slain and then died for my sins. He took the sting out of death. If we began to place our righteous on what we do be-it good works, fasting to get those big blessings, giving to the poor to earn something from God. Then his death is in vain. If we could do it our self, then there wouldn’t be a need for a savior. “Galatians 2:21: I do not treat the grace of God as meaningless. For if keeping the law could make us right with God, then there was no need for Christ to die.”

So this is why this morning when I was praying, I prayed for a clear understanding as to the importance of fasting. The Holy Spirit spoke to me and revealed that fasting is another action by man and it is not about man. It is about the son, what he did for us on the cross. Our depriving of food, things, or even actions cannot make or force God to bless us indeed, abundantly or all that we can imagine. It is what Christ did on the cross and our understanding of his Love alone that will allow him to open the flood gates of heaven and pour us out a blessing that we don’t have room enough to receive. Receive that today! “Ephesians 3:20: Now unto him that is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that worketh in us,”

The Spirit continued on…Fasting is tradition and traditions are religion which is not line in with the Truth. That it is all about the love of God and him sending his only begotten son to die on the cross for a sinful lost world who could not save itself. He knew that we couldn’t do it on our own so he sent us a savior. We can’t take away what has already been done for us and we can’t make or force God to bless us because that battle was already fought on the cross the day he died and was resurrected. So your abundance is in him and all you have to do is ask and believe and receive that in the name of Jesus Christ. “John 14:13 – And I will do whatever you ask in my name, so that the Father may be glorified in the Son.”

Once you have accepted this in your heart, watch the overflow of our savior pour into your life. A transformation will take place! I am a witness of that. “John 8:32: And you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.”

Hallelujah! Receive that today! There is nothing you can do to earn his love, his unmerited favor. There is no mistake to big that God cannot make right and no mistake to big that will cause him to leave you. Remember that it is not about you and your wrong doings or your marvelous actions. He will never turn his back on you or leave you. “Deuteromy 31:6 – Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.”

It is about his son Jesus Christ. 1 Peter 2:24 – He himself bore our sins” in his body on the cross, so that we might die to sins and live for righteousness; “by his wounds you have been healed.”

When God sees you, he sees you as beautiful because we are covered by the blood of the lamb. He sees us as perfect because of what his son did on the cross for us. He doesn’t see our actions. Now believe on that and watch the fullness of God transpire in your life. “Ephesians 3:19 NLT – May you experience the love of Christ, though it is too great to understand fully. Then you will be made complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes from God.”

I love you all so much and pray that God’s truth will rein in your life today.

I have recently reached what I call a milestone in my life; one that I dreaded and was very fearful to make. To make a long story short, my mom died of AIDS when I was 17. She died at the young age of 32 leaving behind 4 children and I was the oldest.  Because of her death, each year, I celebrated my birthday in sadness and fear that her doom (well what I believed doom was) would soon come knocking at my door. Death that is….

Not only that but I was just unhappy because she was gone and couldn’t be here to see how much I have accomplished or met her two beautiful granddaughters. I have struggled so much in my life…Nothing too major as far as life circumstances.  My life is pretty normal for what most people see with their human eyes and I try to keep it looking that way.  However, there was a constant battle going on deep inside. I was a prisoner in my own mind. I was far gone!  Far away from God and reality!  It was like I was going crazy from the imprisonment of my mind and there was no way out!

I prayed often! It didn’t work! I smiled in peoples’ faces, but when their backs were turned, I frowned in sadness and anger!  I hugged, even when I didn’t feel like loving any one including myself!  I spoke of God, but really didn’t know him or trust him!  I read the bible, but my mind was somewhere else!  I encouraged others, when I didn’t even believe that God could answer my own prays!  I dreamt dreams and talked about goals, but I knew that –  that was just it, wishful thinking!  I was lost!!!  So lost!!!!  I hated myself, life and my reality!  So much so that Suicide was always near and dear to me! Yep, the word everyone hates or is a shame to say or admit!

No one knew what I was dealing with!  I always say that it was like a dark cloud that followed me everywhere. There were times I just didn’t have the drive in me to get up and go. I wanted to stay in bed under my blankets in the dark and hide from the world.

But all of this changed, only within a few months. Growing up, my mom taught us about God. We went to church every day of the week, prayed together before bed, and read the bible together daily. We did all of that, but it did nothing for me! However, not until recently.

One day, I was at home lying in bed and I wanted to really read the bible, not just read, I wanted to understand it and actually grow from what I read. I prayed that night for God to lead me to a chapter that would apply to me. One that would help me. That didn’t happen.

The next day I went to a Goodwill store, not to buy or book, I had forgot about my pray that night. I went to shop for my girls’ some clothes. I walked over the book section to get books for them. And I came across a Joseph Prince book “Destined to Reign”. I bought it! And read it that night. I couldn’t put it down!

This book opened up my lost eyes to who God really is!  It washed me clean and my thoughts. Instead of me believing God was this big angry man who is always wanting to punish me. I saw him as my loving Father, even when I make mistakes. I learned about his Love and that he is Love. I learned about forgiveness and peace. I learned that I am a new creature in him and old things are past away.

The more I read the book, the more I started to seek after Christ daily. I struggled and still do with those things that hunted me, but because I finally understand his Love for me – it changed everything!!!!  I mean everything!!!!!!!!!  I walk and live in his Love! I appreciate me, flaws, and failures!  I can truly do things in my life because of him and me finally understanding him and who he is.

I fell in Love that day! And I have been head over heels since!!!!   I am reminded of a verse in a Jamie Grace song. It goes like this “I heard you were good, but this is more than I expected”!!!   She is soo right!  I heard God was Good growing up by listening to and watching my mom experience him, but to experience his Love, his being for myself, I cannot explain this feeling!  It’s so overwhelming and powerful!  It touches the very core of my heart!

So with all that being said, my birthday was on December 8th.  I turned 32, the age my mom died.  God was preparing me for that day I believe in the previous months. So on that day, I was able to celebrate in Peace, Love and Serenity for the first time since she died.

My mom gave me Life when she introduced Christ to me at such a young age because I rely on him heavily each day to make it through my Life. That is what I am soo thankful for on my birthday. I found my Life in Christ and that is something I celebrate! I have never been more alive than I am at 32 in my Life!

Praise God for his life saving Grace and thank you mom for introducing me to the Love of my Life at the mere age of 4, my Heavenly Father!

Happy Birthday to me!!!!!

It’s funny how the very thing that you once hated becomes the very thing that you fall in love with.  There was a time I hated being so sensitive and emotional in tuned with others statement of mind or living situation. I’d cry at the drop of a dime, if I saw a hungry person, a stranded animal on the side of the road, a child without shoes on a cold day or an elderly person in a wheelchair strolling down the road howling groceries in their lap.

But as I have grown, I have learned that this sensitive heart of mine that I once hated and saw as a burden, as my downfall, I have learned that this is what makes me beautiful.  The softness of it and the beauty of my passion for others and their wellbeing is the very love that Christ has for us.  He melts at our very presence and worship.  He aches when we are in pain and feels our hurt.  He wants to be our provider and desires that we live a life full of his greatness and glory.  He cares if we are hungry, sick, sad, lonely, cold…. I have and am still learning to embrace this part of me – the part of me that I have tried to run from and tried to avoid facing because it just didn’t feel good, especially when I couldn’t help those people or situations.

I thank God for this heart of mine – the heart for his people and the deep desire to help others be the best that they can be. This is what it feels like to love others unconditionally and want the best for all mankind.  Lord, I thank you for a heart that loves sooo deeply till it hurts. I once saw myself as fragile as glass, but I have learned that you GOD is my strength and I don’t have to run from who and how you created me. For when I am weak, you are my strength! Thank you Lord for Love and this Huge Heart of Mine!!!!

“Write your story on my heart” – Francesca Battistelli album