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No one motivates me!

Posted: June 2, 2017 in Uncategorized
Tags: alive, cancer, confused, dead, defeat, dieing, God, hope, job, lost, love, motivate, motivation, peace, self esteem, sick, spirit, trust

Today at work, I was thinking about what motivates me. No one came to mind. I thought, surely someone or something pushes me to be successful in life. Not a one person came to mind. Not Oprah, not Michelle Obama, not Joyce Meyers. I mean literally no one came to mind. Which I found really weird.

But as I sat there thinking about what comes to mind when I am struggling with an issue, or when I am about to make a life changing decision. My 2 beautiful daughters came to mind. Truly I am motivated by them. This strong will to succeed and please God is my motivator. Being a good person and living my best life now is my motivation. Funny thing is, as I write, I believe that others motivate me. My drive to motivate someone with a low self-esteem, fearful, suffering from abuse, knows loss, confused, unhappy or even suicidal is my motivation to push through every obstacle that comes my way.

I want my life to be a testimony of hope, of drive, of success and peace. All while being a mom, wife, friend, sister and Christian! When I talk to others that struggle in these areas, I can’t help but see me all over them. I want them to never give up! To view me as that little engine that could, would and did!

I am a conqueror! I do not conqueror on my own! I do not walk this life on my own. I do not succeed on my own! I do all of this in the Mighty name of Jesus Christ! A name higher than my own! A name higher than any name! With a power that can literally move mountains, raise the dead, and heal the sick! Operating in his power, makes me a force to reckoned with because I know that I am nothing without him!

HE is my TRUE motivation!

Cry Wolf!

Posted: May 4, 2016 in Uncategorized
Tags: anger, attack, fight, God, hope, hopeless, Jesus, liar, Lord, might, purpose, sad, satan, self esteem, strength, wolf

It’s like while you’re going through something in your life, Satan comes along to beat you down even more with his accusatory and convicting antics. He makes you doubt your Faith, the fact that you are a Christian, your sanity and so much more. All because you are having a weak moment. He uses our weak times as his personal playground to slip-in and mind control us. Please do not get dismayed or psyched out by it. Speak the word of God and remind yourself of the promises that God has told you. Satan is lurking and waiting for the right moment to tear at us. He uses confusion, low self-esteem, self-hate, our faults, our questioning, our anxiousness, and simply lack thereof to prove God wrong all the time. His sole purpose is to cry-wolf that God is a liar, God can’t be trusted and God doesn’t love us. However, that is the time where we must then fight and fight hard! Fight him with the Word of God and operate in the strength of God’s might! God is one opponent he can’t sneak attack or win against.

Dare to be You!

Posted: April 20, 2016 in Uncategorized
Tags: beautiful, corporate america, different, God, happy, Jesus, level, love, professional, professions, self esteem, self hate, work

I am always amazed when I attend conferences on appearance and on how to become a professional puppet to appease other puppets. Ultimately a conference on folks telling me how to act to avoid being perceived differently. (Differently, we are all different! But any who) As I grow stronger in the Word and continuously build my relationship with God, I find that none and I mean none of this matters in the grand scheme of things. The way I wear my hair or the design of my shirt or the size of my necklace does not nor will it stop the Blessings that God has in store for me. For his favor on my life is far bigger than any concocted human standard only created by dust. Humans that is! No I am not being cocky or saying that you should not follow the laws of the land. Please do as the Word of God tells us too. All I am saying is that no one but God puts a limit to what you can do and how far you can go in your life, career, passions, parenting etc. No simple cloth, facial expression or metal can detour the successful path of a favor-filled, God-seeking and Faith believing person. When you take your eyes off him and begin to focus on unreachable standards. I say unattainable because, these standards were set in place by prejudice, hateful, and racial discriminating people who only had their elevation in mind and their kind. So yeah, try to reach that bar if you dare, a bar that was not designed for you to reach. Heck, a bar that did not have you in mind AT All.

Seek the approval of God and all the things he has to offer. Keep his promises in mind. Remind yourself of what God says about you daily. Allow him to guide you. Why not? He made you, sees you right where you are, but most of all created your beginning and end. Don’t allow others (dust) to entice you to go down a path that God did not design for you. Trust the potter and not the product(clay) of the potter. For the potter created each one of us differently with different endings. He did not make us the same in anyway. Therefore, we cannot be treated as such.

Be you and love all you are and all you have to offer. For with God leading you, nothing is impossible! Dare to be different! Dare to be ALL of you!

Just something to keep in mind!

Snatched by a Tornado!!!

Posted: January 26, 2016 in Uncategorized
Tags: car, confused, daddy, driving, find, God, hate, hope, Jesus, lost, love, seek, sin, tornado, trust

2 nights ago, I had another dream about a tornado. My husband, I and our two daughters were driving to church. We knew a bad storm was coming because we heard about it on the radio. As we were driving, I noticed from a far a tornado developing and another one coming directly at us. Hoping that my husband could possible beat it, I screamed go, go! He went as fast as he could, but the tornado was way too fast. We got swept up in it.

As it snatched us into its stomach and swallowed us whole, I immediately closed my eyes and began to pray loudly in the car. All I remember is being so wrapped-up in my prayer and allowing God to calm me and praying he did the same for my family.

The prayer request that stood out the most was me asking God to allow our fall to feel like we landed on a pillow. I knew we would be thrown somewhere and we were! But God honored my prayer and the fall felt just like we landed on a pillow. We were not harmed and neither was our car.

The next day, I contemplated on the dream asking myself what God wanted me to get out of it. I thought about how my (real) life has been pretty crazy right now and how I have lean so heavily on God during this time. More than I have ever done in my life.

I realized at that moment that God wanted me to always keep my eyes on him. Despite this world-wind of life and all that is going on, he wants me to simply close my eyes and have Faith that he will honor all those things that he has promised. But most of all – he hears me and sees me wherever I am and because of my Faith in him, he will always pull though for me. Amen to that Good News!

Hallelujah, this really blessed me – just the fact that my daddy revealed himself to me in a dream about tornados (which I have always been fascinated with and fearful of at the same time since I was a kid).

I am loved!!! Hallelujah, I am loved!!!!

Proverbs 8:17 – I love those who love me, and those who seek me find me.

Jeremiah 29:13 – You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.

My weaknesses are getting the best of me!

Posted: January 7, 2016 in Uncategorized
Tags: blessed, courage, drained, exhausted, fears, God, grace, hopeful, hopeless, love, mentally, mind, scripture, strength, success, thoughts, tired, weakness

Each day you have to wake up and take control of your thoughts. Although it sounds pretty easy right, it is far from it. The reason being is that you have to truly discipline yourself in this area.

I started a new role with the same company that I have been with for over 8 years. This position has truly been a difficult one. Get this; I am a perfectionist, quick learner, structured individual who needs clear direction, patience and organization to succeed in pretty much most of the things I take on in my life. This role supplies none of that, which makes me daily question my existence here, purpose and why I even chose the role in the 1^st place.

With all this issues, I struggle each day to make it mentally and figuratively. My thoughts are always negative tearing me down even more to the point it is affecting my health. My stress levels are always at an extreme high. I suffer from back pain with no desire to wake up in the mornings. I have slim to no patience for my husband and children and very snappy with my peers.

I had to slap myself literally back into my Spiritual Reality and remind myself who my Father is and where my Faith lies. This was a true wakeup call! God reminded me that he is still in control and sees the Big picture. More so he is the orchestra of the Big Picture. Yes I see nothing but confusion and disorganization here, but he sees something oh so different.

I have tried daily to take on this role and view it in the eyes of the Lord. And he views me in every situation as a Success and that I will be. More so I prayed for this job and he Blessed me with it. (Proverbs 16:3 – Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and your plans will succeed.)

What helps me daily are the following:

Every morning, I look at this yearly devotional (got it for Christmas) that stands next to my alarm clock with scriptures reminding me of what God says to and about me daily.
I bought a journal from Target called the Bucket List. I write my feelings down every day to avoid becoming overwhelmed by them. It allows me to write my passions, hopes and fears (this helps a lot!!!)
Prayer daily and throughout the day
Speak God’s word to myself aloud and within
Draw pictures (funny but love this – visual picture of myself conquering and overcoming) of how I want to feel and what I want to accomplish daily
Write out my exact feelings (Happy, Productive etc.) that I want to feel and write a scripture to back it up
When I struggle and I will – simply remind yourself of who your Father is and that he has your back

Verse of choice

II Corinthians 12:9 – My Grace is Sufficient for thee: for my Strength is made Perfect in Weakness.

Satan can use Facebook to get to us!

Posted: October 14, 2015 in Uncategorized
Tags: dad, deceive, destroy, enemy, facebook, God, hate, hope, kill, love, loved, peace, rejection, satan, steal

Today while on the shuttle, I decide to go onto my Facebook as I do daily. I noticed that I had a friend invite from my grandmother on my dad’s side. Immediately I thought, why? Why did she send me a friend request? I haven’t talk to her in over 10 years or my dad if not longer.

Just out of curiosity I went to my dad’s Facebook page only to find that my friend request from months ago was not accepted and that he had updated his profile and cover photo and to top it off, his son and sister were his mutual friends.

I began to feel a sense of rejection. Asking myself why he wants nothing to do with me. Before I could deep the hole deeper, God reminded me that he was my father, my true father. He created love, he is love and I am loved. It’s amazing to learn that you are loved, but its life changing when you recognize his love. God spoke to me letting me know that in him I am so deeply loved and that I do not have to hungry for love or thirst for it because the flow from him will never stop or run dry, it will never dwindle. It will always overflow and overflow.

At that moment, those feelings of being unloved and rejected quickly disappeared because I have finally recognized that I have a father who is love, but most of all who created love. He made me in love and nothing I can ever do will destroy his love for me. Hallelujah!

God has all the love I need!

Fallen Head over Heels in Love!

Posted: September 21, 2015 in Uncategorized
Tags: blessed, courage, Faith, God, happiness, help, hope, identity, Jesus, lonely, Lord, love, mate, passion, praise, strength

Sometimes I get so overwhelmed in your Glory. It’s like a heightened high in love and admiration for you. I can’t control my praise or my body. When I think about your goodness every part of my body goes into worship mode. You literally take my breath away! I trust you with all of me and every area of my life! You touch places that no human being can even get to. This is the craziest adrenaline rush – nothing compares to when you allow God to lead you blindly to unexpected places. My stomach turns, my heart skips several beats, my mouth opens in praise, my eye close and bask in your presence. Your love for me has truly transformed my very being. I know that I was not living before I encountered your love for me. I have fallen so deeply in love with you. Your sweet words have captivated me. I blush every time I read or hear about you and how passionate you are about me. I give my life to you – the very life that you created. I devote it back to you.

I love you Lord and am so Blessed that you love me!

Focus on Truth!

Posted: July 27, 2015 in Uncategorized
Tags: anger, death, defeat, frustration, God, happiness, hope, lies, Life, love, peace, sadness

Never be blinded by fake feelings…the ones that seem to come and go. Always keep your eyes on Truth – the constant unchanging Truth. And that is God. When you keep your eyes on him, no feelings of hurt, anger, despair, frustration, emptiness or whatever negative spirit can have its way with you. Because there is only one name that can demolish them all and that is calling on the precious and sweet name of Jesus. Everything shall bow and has no place torturing or tearing us down when his name is flowing freely in our minds and his goodness. A name that brings life! And with life comes strength and power! Allow God to be the root that is dug so deep within that nothing else has room to sprout up, break us away from him and then eventually kill us.

Focus on Truth today!!

Be Triumphant!

Posted: March 16, 2015 in Uncategorized
Tags: angry, bold, burdened down, confident, deserving, God, help, hopeless, hungry, Jesus, lion, low, poor, smart, strength, triumphant, weak

“God I want my wants and needs to line up with the very things you want for me”, this was my prayer on Saturday. I have come to realize that throughout my life, God has always given me the very best. I do not know what is best for me! Yes, God does want to give you the desires of your heart and he puts those passions there, but ultimately, we do not know what the Very Best is for ourselves. This is why my constant prayer now is Lord make my will line up to your Will because your Will is best for me. I do not want anything else but the best and in you I have that!

Order my steps in your Word – Lead me – Guide Me in Everyway! (Psalm 119:133) I live a life now directed by the Lord. I do not want to walk this life without him being my guide. I love just knowing that God sees the big picture because I sure can’t. Although his timing is not my own, I know that his timing is best. For he goes before me to prepare everything for my entrance – I find Peace in that!

I rest in knowing that his Word is a lamp for my feet, a light on my path. (Psalm 119:105) I am overwhelmed with Joy – because wherever he allows my feet to go – I can have confidence in knowing that I belong wherever I am! My father is the God Almighty and I am accepted into his family – therefore making me an heir. I can be bold and triumphant in every situation because my Father is here with me directing me and whispering in my ear – You can do it! Stay strong! Be encouraged! Do not Fear! No weapon formed against you can prosper! Amen! This is the God I serve!

He sees YOU – Right where you ARE

Posted: February 28, 2015 in Uncategorized
Tags: angry, confused, confusion, dreams, goals, God, help, hungry, lonely, lost, love, prayers, sees me, unanswered prayers

God has yet amazed me again! It’s always wonderful when he shows you that he is listening to your prayers. It may not come the way you’d like, but isn’t it ALWAYS amazing when he just gives you a glimpse of what you have prayed for (a little taste).

The other night, I checked my phone only to find a text from a good friend of mine telling me about a job opportunity with a Christian online blog. God knows I have prayed for an opportunity to write devotions. Like, during my time with God, I literally scribble down titles for potential devotions. I couldn’t help but become overwhelm with joy and praise to my heavenly father. Not because I am going to get the job (which I hope I do), but because he showed me he hears me…(At this moment as I write, I close my eyes and take a deep breathe). I do this because I know he loves me sooo deeply! He knew that I needed just a hint that he sees me, but most of all he hears me.

Even if the opportunity does not open up to me. I am still in awe! My father loves me that much – to put me on the mind of a friend that I hadn’t talk to in months to reveal to me that he is listening to me. (Smiling from cheek to cheek at this very moment) I am loved! He loves me! And the best part of it ALL – is that I love him so passionately!

So know that your prayers are not just hitting the ceiling. Your heavenly father hears them and he is listening to your every request! He sees you….right where you are. He knows what you need and when you need it. I find that I am constantly reminding myself of this very thing….Lord I know you see me at this moment and I shall always look to you….Hallelujah!!!!

Scripture I just simply adore

-Are not five sparrows sold for two cents? Yet not one of them is forgotten before God. “Indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Do not fear; you are more valuable than many sparrows. Luke 12:6-7

-For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11

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