Posts Tagged ‘confused’

Today at work, I was thinking about what motivates me.  No one came to mind. I thought, surely someone or something pushes me to be successful in life.  Not a one person came to mind.  Not Oprah, not Michelle Obama, not Joyce Meyers. I mean literally no one came to mind. Which I found really weird.

But as I sat there thinking about what comes to mind when I am struggling with an issue, or when I am about to make a life changing decision. My 2 beautiful daughters came to mind. Truly I am motivated by them. This strong will to succeed and please God is my motivator. Being a good person and living my best life now is my motivation. Funny thing is, as I write, I believe that others motivate me.  My drive to motivate someone with a low self-esteem, fearful, suffering from abuse, knows loss, confused, unhappy or even suicidal is my motivation to push through every obstacle that comes my way.

I want my life to be a testimony of hope, of drive, of success and peace. All while being a mom, wife, friend, sister and Christian!  When I talk to others that struggle in these areas, I can’t help but see me all over them. I want them to never give up! To view me as that little engine that could, would and did!

I am a conqueror!  I do not conqueror on my own! I do not walk this life on my own. I do not succeed on my own!  I do all of this in the Mighty name of Jesus Christ!  A name higher than my own!  A name higher than any name!  With a power that can literally  move mountains, raise the dead, and heal the sick! Operating in his power, makes me a force to reckoned with because I know that I am nothing without him!

HE is my TRUE motivation!

 

 

2 nights ago, I had another dream about a tornado.  My husband, I and our two daughters were driving to church.  We knew a bad storm was coming because we heard about it on the radio.  As we were driving, I noticed from a far a tornado developing and another one coming directly at us.  Hoping that my husband could possible beat it, I screamed go, go! He went as fast as he could, but the tornado was way too fast. We got swept up in it.

As it snatched us into its stomach and swallowed us whole, I immediately closed my eyes and began to pray loudly in the car.  All I remember is being so wrapped-up in my prayer and allowing God to calm me and praying he did the same for my family.

The prayer request that stood out the most was me asking God to allow our fall to feel like we landed on a pillow.  I knew we would be thrown somewhere and we were!  But God honored my prayer and the fall felt just like we landed on a pillow.  We were not harmed and neither was our car.

The next day, I contemplated on the dream asking myself what God wanted me to get out of it.  I thought about how my (real) life has been pretty crazy right now and how I have lean so heavily on God during this time.  More than I have ever done in my life.

I realized at that moment that God wanted me to always keep my eyes on him. Despite this world-wind of life and all that is going on, he wants me to simply close my eyes and have Faith that he will honor all those things that he has promised. But most of all –  he hears me and sees me wherever I am and because of my Faith in him, he will always pull though for me.  Amen to that Good News!

Hallelujah, this really blessed me – just the fact that my daddy revealed himself to me in a dream about tornados (which I have always been fascinated with and fearful of at the same time since I was a kid).

I am loved!!!  Hallelujah, I am loved!!!!

Proverbs 8:17 – I love those who love me, and those who seek me find me.

Jeremiah 29:13 – You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.

God has yet amazed me again!  It’s always wonderful when he shows you that he is listening to your prayers.  It may not come the way you’d like, but isn’t it ALWAYS amazing when he just gives you a glimpse of what you have prayed for (a little taste).

The other night, I checked my phone only to find a text from a good friend of mine telling me about a job opportunity with a Christian online blog. God knows I have prayed for an opportunity to write devotions. Like, during my time with God, I literally scribble down titles for potential devotions. I couldn’t help but become overwhelm with joy and praise to my heavenly father.  Not because I am going to get the job (which I hope I do), but because he showed me he hears me…(At this moment as I write, I close my eyes and take a deep breathe). I do this because I know he loves me sooo deeply!  He knew that I needed just a hint that he sees me, but most of all he hears me.

Even if the opportunity does not open up to me.  I am still in awe! My father loves me that much – to put me on the mind of a friend that I hadn’t talk to in months to reveal to me that he is listening to me. (Smiling from cheek to cheek at this very moment) I am loved! He loves me! And the best part of it ALL – is that I love him so passionately!

So know that your prayers are not just hitting the ceiling.  Your heavenly father hears them and he is listening to your every request! He sees you….right where you are.   He knows what you need and when you need it.  I find that I am constantly reminding myself of this very thing….Lord I know you see me at this moment and I shall always look to you….Hallelujah!!!!

Scripture I just simply adore

-Are not five sparrows sold for two cents? Yet not one of them is forgotten before God. “Indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Do not fear; you are more valuable than many sparrows.  Luke 12:6-7

-For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11

 

Yesterday was a struggle for me. I thought that I was just physically tired, but soon began to realize that I was actually emotionally drained which impacted my whole being. While at work, I just didn’t really want to be bothered by anyone. I knew that what I was feeling was not of God and that it was a crack that Satan could enter to use against me. I decided not today!

So I got up and went into our game room at the office and began to pray and read about God’s love. When I walked out I felt so much better. I knew that familiar place, but this time I knew a remedy for it and it was to turn to God and not myself. I began to remind myself of His love and how he still loves me when I am acting like this and how he still wants to bless me more than I could dream!

I was reminded by the Spirit that I needed to constantly bath in the love of God and his teachings. As this is the only way that I could withstand those difficulty times. I am reminded that I must feast on God daily. Taste his new manna every morning. He has to stay apart of my daily routine because without him, I will fall back into my old ways. And this I do not want because in him I have been set free and I want to say free indeed!

One thing that I have learned in my spiritual walk with God is – when you have not feasted on him in a while, your body (God) will certainly remind you. It’s like your body goes into starvation mode feasting on any and everything it finds – whether its reality shows, other people’s drama, bad/negative music or thoughts that are not of God. Leaving you to feel empty! I am a witness to this because I have felt this way after I have feasted on those unhealthy things – so much so my body and spirit gets so weak that I have to turn back to God – and feast on those things that are pure and lovely (healthy food) – those things that will build me up and not break me down – those things that will keep my foundation strong when the wind blows!

****Philippians 4:8-9  Finally, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, dwell on these things.9The things you have learned and received and heard and seen in me, practice these things, and the God of peace will be with you.****

 

God does not remember your sins from the past, today and will not remember them in the future. Simply because of what Jesus Christ did on the cross. He carried your sins on his back and died for you to have eternal life with him. And because his blood was shed for you. God sees what his son did. He sees his son’s blood covering you and all your sins. And because you believe in him. You can ask whatever you want in the son’s name and he will give it to you. “John 14:13” No matter what you have done. Start thanking him for that and stop thinking about what you have done wrong. It is not about you. It is about the Lord.

Mediate on this and receive his love today and watch him transform you from the inside out. He wants to make you brand new. You are righteous through God because of Christ Jesus. No sin that you have committed can change that.

Receive the love of God today because he first loved you. He is waiting on you because you are is beautiful child whom he adores…..His desire is for you to live a life full of abundance and in freedom. Allow him to be your rock. Allow him to be your father. Allow him to be your rest. Allow him to be your peace. He hungers for you. You are his baby and he wants to give you nourishment and life. He wants to breathe into you and pour his favour all over you and allow everything you do to be a success.

Come to Christ and allow him to be the head of your life.