Posts Tagged ‘christ’

I have felt like a foreigner in my own body, in this world, at work, and around others for some time.  At first this would bother me so deeply – wondering why I am like this, why are my thoughts, feelings and insight like this.

My life was flipped upside down and down side-up about a year ago.  I wholeheartedly gave my life over to Christ at 31.  I mean I really laid down the life I once knew and began to follow Jesus.  I picked up his Word and began to meditate on it day and night literally.  I was seeking him with every fiber in my bones. Until one day he showed up and showed out.  He took that natural life I was given and gave me a life that I never imagined that I could ever have. I became a new spiritual creature because he made me one of his Own.

His light dwells within me, constantly radiating and rotating his beauty on the inside of me. When situations arise and my normal reactions of fear, worry, sadness and rage try to arise, I feel the radiance of God’s love for ME reminding me that I am made whole in Christ.  His Word is constantly pouring out of my mouth and swimming in my mind. I am operating in the Spirit.

I am not myself – the self I once knew.  So when I don’t get quick to anger, worry, hurt, sad, frustrated, annoyed – I am reminded by Christ that I have been made brand new and all things from my past have been washed away.

I too, am not of this World and I don’t have to take on the characteristics, personas, ideas, actions, negativity, beliefs that they are offering because I have been transformed and renewed.

I have hope among the hopeless….

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Love is when you can look at a person and see them how Christ sees them! When you can love a person despite what they have, do not have or how they look.  Christ doesn’t base his love off of what you have in the bank or how much you give.  He loves each one of us equally!  And that is why I love him so dearly!  When he sees me, he sees his son’s blood and the love he has for him.  So with these eyes of mine, I too love his people like he loves them and not with conditions.  I am no better than the next person.  I am a child of God and so are each and every last one of you who accepts him as your Lord and Savior.  I believe that looking at the world through the eyes of Christ (with His never failing Love) can heal the hate that devours this world that we live in……

 

Romans 13:10 – Love does no harm to its neighbor…

1 Corn 13:4-8 – …Love never fails…

 

Today 2 Corinthians 10:5 ran through my head “…and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.”

No one warned me as to how much of a fight it would be to keep my mind pure from the thoughts that once hunted me throughout my entire life. Let’s be honest earlier this week. Today started like no other, got up early as I normally do about 4am, drove to work and ended up at cubicle 2916 as I have done for over 2 years. From what I thought, I was pretty normal; except for a weird, yet scary dream I had that night. I won’t get into details about it.

As I sat at my desk preparing for the day, my coworkers were indulged in their YouTube funnies. They were laughing, joking and just being their normal selves. However, I started to feel an old emotion tapping at my left shoulder reminding me of how much they annoy me each day and their fakeness! As that feeling was knocking, another tap occurred on my right shoulder and then another and another. And before I knew it, frustration, irritation, anger, low self-esteem, hopelessness, and anxiety were all dancing around me trying to figure out who would jump in or get invited in first.

Within almost an instant, hopelessness began to ease its sneaky emotion in first. I felt the word “hope” moving in and waiting right behind its sneaky little suffix “lessness” trying to creep its way in too. However, at the moment, I did something different. The old me would have said, come on in, sit with me, devour me. But this day, I went to Youtube and found Mandisa Overcomer song. As I listened, I went to my emergency kit saved in my Favorites on my computer. It’s a blog that I go to from time to time that has very powerful scriptures that speak to my heart.

http://www.mymomlife.com/blog/my-spiritual-life/motivation-encouragement-bible-verses/

As I read each scripture and rocked to Overcomer, I began to feel hopelessness being forced out and taking its little minions with it. I got up from my desk and walked to the restroom. As I was walking, I felt like I had been in a boxing match. I thought “why is it such a fight to keep your mind pure and at peace. No one warned me that it would be a fight. It’s like every day, minute, and second a negative emotion is waiting to take me down and I have to literal fight to keep myself positive and at peace. Literal, I have to “Fight for my Life”!  The life that God said that he came to give me in John 10:10 – The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly.

As I was doing my business in the restroom, 2 Corinthians 10:5 came to mind “…and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.” It was like someone hit me in the head with a baseball. I thought “Wow, so it is like we are in a boxing ring trying to protect our thoughts. We are protecting our hearts and minds from the tricks of Satan and in order to protect ourselves, we must fight and that means taking down every thought, capturing it and hitting it with what the Word of God says.

Once I realized this, I left out of that restroom with a new found joy in knowing that God has my back and I am not fighting my battles, but the Lord is….All I can say to that is Amen!!!!