Posts Tagged ‘blessed’

Each day you have to wake up and take control of your thoughts. Although it sounds pretty easy right, it is far from it.  The reason being is that you have to truly discipline yourself in this area.

I started a new role with the same company that I have been with for over 8 years. This position has truly been a difficult one. Get this; I am a perfectionist, quick learner, structured individual who needs clear direction, patience and organization to succeed in pretty much most of the things I take on in my life. This role supplies none of that, which makes me daily question my existence here, purpose and why I even chose the role in the 1st place.

With all this issues, I struggle each day to make it mentally and figuratively. My thoughts are always negative tearing me down even more to the point it is affecting my health. My stress levels are always at an extreme high. I suffer from back pain with no desire to wake up in the mornings. I have slim to no patience for my husband and children and very snappy with my peers.

I had to slap myself literally back into my Spiritual Reality and remind myself who my Father is and where my Faith lies. This was a true wakeup call! God reminded me that he is still in control and sees the Big picture. More so he is the orchestra of the Big Picture. Yes I see nothing but confusion and disorganization here, but he sees something oh so different.

I have tried daily to take on this role and view it in the eyes of the Lord. And he views me in every situation as a Success and that I will be. More so I prayed for this job and he Blessed me with it. (Proverbs 16:3 – Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and your plans will succeed.)

What helps me daily are the following:

  • Every morning, I look at this yearly devotional (got it for Christmas) that stands next to my alarm clock with scriptures reminding me of what God says to and about me daily.
  • I bought a journal from Target called the Bucket List. I write my feelings down every day to avoid becoming overwhelmed by them. It allows me to write my passions, hopes and fears (this helps a lot!!!)
  • Prayer daily and throughout the day
  • Speak God’s word to myself aloud and within
  • Draw pictures (funny but love this – visual picture of myself conquering and overcoming) of how I want to feel and what I want to accomplish daily
  • Write out my exact feelings (Happy, Productive etc.) that I want to feel and write a scripture to back it up
  • When I struggle and I will – simply remind yourself of who your Father is and that he has your back

Verse of choice

II Corinthians 12:9 – My Grace is Sufficient for thee: for my Strength is made Perfect in Weakness.

 

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Sometimes I get so overwhelmed in your Glory.  It’s like a heightened high in love and admiration for you.   I can’t control my praise or my body.  When I think about your goodness every part of my body goes into worship mode.  You literally take my breath away!  I trust you with all of me and every area of my life!  You touch places that no human being can even get to.  This is the craziest adrenaline rush – nothing compares to when you allow God to lead you blindly to unexpected places.  My stomach turns, my heart skips several beats, my mouth opens in praise, my eye close and bask in your presence. Your love for me has truly transformed my very being.  I know that I was not living before I encountered your love for me. I have fallen so deeply in love with you.  Your sweet words have captivated me. I blush every time I read or hear about you and how passionate you are about me. I give my life to you – the very life that you created.  I devote it back to you.

I love you Lord and am so Blessed that you love me!