Posts Tagged ‘anger’

wolfIt’s like while you’re going through something in your life, Satan comes along to beat you down even more with his accusatory and convicting antics.  He makes you doubt your Faith, the fact that you are a Christian, your sanity and so much more. All because you are having a weak moment.  He uses our weak times as his personal playground to slip-in and mind control us.  Please do not get dismayed or psyched out by it.  Speak the word of God and remind yourself of the promises that God has told you.  Satan is lurking and waiting for the right moment to tear at us.  He uses confusion, low self-esteem, self-hate, our faults, our questioning, our anxiousness, and simply lack thereof to prove God wrong all the time. His sole purpose is to cry-wolf that God is a liar, God can’t be trusted and God doesn’t love us.  However, that is the time where we must then fight and fight hard!  Fight him with the Word of God and operate in the strength of God’s might!  God is one opponent he can’t sneak attack or win against.

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Never be blinded by fake feelings…the ones that seem to come and go.  Always keep your eyes on Truth – the constant unchanging Truth.  And that is God.  When you keep your eyes on him, no feelings of hurt, anger, despair, frustration, emptiness or whatever negative spirit can have its way with you. Because there is only one name that can demolish them all and that is calling on the precious and sweet name of Jesus. Everything shall bow and has no place torturing or tearing us down when his name is flowing freely in our minds and his goodness.  A name that brings life! And with life comes strength and power! Allow God to be the root that is dug so deep within that nothing else has room to sprout up, break us away from him and then eventually kill us. 

Focus on Truth today!!

 

Love is when you can look at a person and see them how Christ sees them! When you can love a person despite what they have, do not have or how they look.  Christ doesn’t base his love off of what you have in the bank or how much you give.  He loves each one of us equally!  And that is why I love him so dearly!  When he sees me, he sees his son’s blood and the love he has for him.  So with these eyes of mine, I too love his people like he loves them and not with conditions.  I am no better than the next person.  I am a child of God and so are each and every last one of you who accepts him as your Lord and Savior.  I believe that looking at the world through the eyes of Christ (with His never failing Love) can heal the hate that devours this world that we live in……

 

Romans 13:10 – Love does no harm to its neighbor…

1 Corn 13:4-8 – …Love never fails…

 

Driving along to work this morning was one of the best mornings. (I am a morning person anyway)  Each morning as I drive, I love my moments with God.  This is when I talk and pray to God and sometimes I sing a song or two to him. This morning, as I talked to my heavenly Father, I couldn’t stop praising him for Faith.  Faith was truly something that was so hard for me to come by.

Today was the first day in my life that I felt something very different about Faith.  As I continued in prayer, I had a great feeling of confidence in God – in the knowing that he truly has me.  And that is an awesome feeling!  I dove in my past for a minute or two – reflecting on what has happened to me and how far he has brought me.  At that moment I started to chant in Faith:

– Lord I have Faith that you will protect me and my family

– I have Faith that no deadly diseases will come our way

– I have Faith that you will give me that peace that passeth all understanding in my time of need

– I have Faith that you will increase my husband and I financial situation

– I have Faith that I will not struggle with those things that kept me bond and down

– Lord I have Faith that you will continue to provide increase, even though my job is shutting down my building and I don’t know what my future holds with them, you will take care of me

And I could go on, on and on – but you understand….

Tears began to fall from my eyes.  Not in sadness, but because I finally understand the depth of Faith and how it can truly move mountains.  Understanding that I cannot get distracted by what is in front of me and this world wind of life that is happening everyday, I have come to realize that the most important thing in my life is my Faith in my Father.  Faith that he will do exactly what his Word says he will do.  I stand on his promises and nothing else!  And you know what, that feels so GOOD!

I do not have to walk in fear, sadness, anger, condemnation, doubt…..I can walk in my Faith because there is nothing to hard for God to handle.  Wow!  All things are possible with God! Thank you Jesus!  Just in knowing this – I sit back right now at my desk, closing my eyes and allowing the cool splash of water to hit my face.  I open my eyes to the newness and refreshing confidence in God – this is how my Faith makes me feel each and every second that I walk in it.  It opens my eyes to what life, my life is all about.

I am blinded by Faith and I love the unexpectedness of it!  Hallelujah!

I will continue to allow my Faith to be my guide….

 

madAnother trying week or week in a half, whichever….

I have struggled with Fear, Sadness, Anger, Conviction, Confusion and the list goes on.

It’s like I am trying to be Right.  The Christian I need to be.  I am trying to be Strong and to allow my Faith Keep Me.  But it seems like my Faith gets tested in so many angles – which makes me wonder if my Faith is strong enough to withstand or if I even have Faith at all.  From watching the news and its constant content of Ebola and the potential outbreak – to my baby girl getting sick (not with Ebola an ear infection – but still the unknown and potential scared me) – to it coming to my house – to my own struggles physically and emotionally.

Geesh, this has been a trying week or week in a half for me.  It’s like I just can’t get right or get it right or be right!  I really try!   Lord knows I do, but it’s so hard being a Christian! What is being a Christian, I wonder?!  Sorry, I am venting a bit!  I try and try, but it seems like I keep failing!  I thought it would be easy, but it seems like it’s the hardest thing I have ever done.  Yea I look at TV and watch Christian folk videos and yea they look happy.  Doing this to help people, giving, smiling and acting as though they don’t have a worry in the word.  Why do I feel like I am the only one who is struggling to walk this walk?  Are these people lying with their fake smiles, warm hugs or could they know something I don’t.  If they do, please tell me because I am at a lost for words and actions!  Sometimes I want to give up and just give in!  I want to throw in the towel sometimes because it just gets overwhelming. When I move forward, it seems like I am being pushed backwards.  I am so lost!  And Lord knows, I want to be found!  But I don’t know if what I am doing is enough!

Ugh….!!!!!!!!!!!  My Truth!!  The Good!  The Bad!  And The Ugly!  “Fighting for my Life” right now….

Scum Pile we met again……

However I refuse to just let go and die in Sin or lose the Faith that I do have….Lord I am holding on by a thread!

 

I had to come back to post this.  God is always on time and knows my heart so much. And listens to my cry and I am so glad that I can be honest with him and explode my true feelings on him without his judgement.  So, after I posted this..a friend of mine who knows nothing about my blog or how I feel texted me this

“Don’t be afraid of your flaws; acknowledge them and let God use you anyway.  Quit Worrying about what you’re not and give God what you are.”  Amen!  This was so needed! Praise God for using others to show me how much he loves me and wants this relationship with me just as much as I do!

 

mirrorWhen you look in the mirror, what do you see? A real question for my readers…

Brown as a tree branch swaying back and from in the wind. Two pearls that shine so brightly (my papa would say when I was a kid when he spoke of my eyes).  Cheekbones so high, you’d think I was raised by top models or born unto Indians.  Dimples on cheek to cheek – from the kissing of angels from up above.

Kinky hair twisted in locks to show my heritage and expressions of my natural beauty. Ears so tiny, yet I can hear all that needs to be heard, especially the chanting of God’s sweet Words whispering softly to me. Lips full, yet small. However, when I open my mouth, love is expressed and so is God’s Glory.

My nose is a perfect work of art – placed so beautifully you see. It was as if God designed it just for Kleenex commercials and I hope I get a gig. (JK) The only flaw I found, was a mole placed right there, right on the left side of my nose. I wondered why there? Why did God design me to have a little black mole right there for the world to see? A sign of imperfection! He must have messed up on me! I thought!

Well, Ecclesiastes 3 reminded me that everything has a purpose. Something as small as a mole on my nose has its purpose. Each creation that God made he placed a purpose in it. He was so passionate about his creations that he gave each one of us our own special mark. Nothing was created by chance, but serves a purpose in his big picture.

And in knowing that, when I look at my mole, I am constantly reminded that my imperfections are made perfect in Christ. Why? Because he took his time in molding me so beautifully and was just showing off when he added a touch of “mole” right on my nose to top off his wonderful creation.

******I would love to hear from you!!!! Tell me what is your special touch/mark that God has blessed you with and why?*****