Posts Tagged ‘alien’

I have felt like a foreigner in my own body, in this world, at work, and around others for some time.  At first this would bother me so deeply – wondering why I am like this, why are my thoughts, feelings and insight like this.

My life was flipped upside down and down side-up about a year ago.  I wholeheartedly gave my life over to Christ at 31.  I mean I really laid down the life I once knew and began to follow Jesus.  I picked up his Word and began to meditate on it day and night literally.  I was seeking him with every fiber in my bones. Until one day he showed up and showed out.  He took that natural life I was given and gave me a life that I never imagined that I could ever have. I became a new spiritual creature because he made me one of his Own.

His light dwells within me, constantly radiating and rotating his beauty on the inside of me. When situations arise and my normal reactions of fear, worry, sadness and rage try to arise, I feel the radiance of God’s love for ME reminding me that I am made whole in Christ.  His Word is constantly pouring out of my mouth and swimming in my mind. I am operating in the Spirit.

I am not myself – the self I once knew.  So when I don’t get quick to anger, worry, hurt, sad, frustrated, annoyed – I am reminded by Christ that I have been made brand new and all things from my past have been washed away.

I too, am not of this World and I don’t have to take on the characteristics, personas, ideas, actions, negativity, beliefs that they are offering because I have been transformed and renewed.

I have hope among the hopeless….