Speak when Spoken To!!! Or else I will shut you UP!!!

Posted: September 23, 2014 in Uncategorized
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shutupPound – Pound – Pound is the sound of my 9 in half dark pink, white and black Nikes hitting the pavement.  Tonight was my track night.  I was lightly jogging along at this near by middle school track around the corner from my house.  I enjoy this alone time.  I take this time to talk to God and to cleanse my mind.

“Breathe in, breathe out, you can do it…keep running…don’t stop…you got this”…oh yeah, that’s me self-motivating as I ran faster and faster around the track.  As it gets darker out, I noticed that more and more people were still coming.  It’s like 7:45 PM.  As I run, I saw something ahead of me, some sort of figure, larger than I.  I watched it as I ran from fast to slow to eventually walking – wondering why I couldn’t shake this figure.

What I saw, well…, I didn’t like!  One because it was weird looking and two it was way larger than me.  It made me very nervous.  As I walked along looking around at the passersby, trying to see if they saw what I saw, I noticed that no one did.  Each individual were too caught up doing their workout routines or just enjoying each others company.

Far off, I saw a young woman stretching, an older couple holding hands while speed walking.  There were children riding their bikes and even playing in the sandbox (that I occasionally let my 4-year-old play in).  Everyone was minding their business. No one saw this distorted figure in front of me.

It wouldn’t leave me alone!  So I stopped walking.  I stared at it and it back at me. I spoke first “ugh, it’s you again”.  No response came from it.  It simply peered up at me. I looked closer and noticed that it was imitating me.  When I turned my head, it too turned.  When I raised my arm, it did the same.  I became frustrated and annoyed with it.  It spoke up to me quietly “you look so fat.  Yea, you thought you were losing weight, but your not!”

At that moment it was a battle of the wills!  I wanted to turn around, walk back to my car and yell “what’s the freaking use, its right it’s no point in me working out, the weight is not falling off”.  So I did just that, I walked…but instead to my car, I began to walk another lap around the track.  Guess who followed me, you guessed it, that figure.  It stuck to me like glue and kept chanting its negative comments up at me.   It got so bad that I stopped again and for the last time.

I looked down at my SHADOW and said, YOU CAN’T WIN!  So follow me all you want, but you will not control me any more. Your appearance!  Your lies!  Have no place here anymore!  I will not be fooled by you anymore!

I was reminded of Ecclesiastes 9:11 – “I have seen something else under the sun: The race is not to the swift or the battle to the strong, nor does food come to the wise or wealth to the brilliant or favor to the learned; but time and chance happen to them all.”

I ran faster than I have ever run.  Yes, she was still there, but instead of her controlling me, I controlled her and her mouth too.  Tunes of “It’s a beautiful day” by Jamie Grace played through my headset echoing in my ears as I ran into the darkness….

All I can say to that is AMEN!!!


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